Gary speed what was the reason

Or not a well one. It seems to say it all really, when you consider how he ended his life. The Sun's Chief Football Correspondent Neal Ashton wrote earlier this month how Louise has often considered whether there was a darker, more sinister, meaning to Speed's letters.

Written before the advent of mobile phones and social media, Speed often reverted to pen and paper to express himself. Indeed it was through letters that Speed and his future wife developed their blossoming relationship. Louise read them avidly: the hopes and dreams of a talented young player struggling with being away from his family, missing his girlfriend, reaching out for something to keep him happy between training sessions and matches.

But at times they took a darker turn, and he talked of ending it, or appearing to hint he was ready to walk away from the sport before his career had even got going. Even now, Louise admits she finds it difficult to forgive the football icon for taking his own life. Now 64, Bennell has admitted one charge relating to the latest former Manchester City player to give evidence — the fifth in the opening six days of the trial — but pleaded not guilty to six other counts involving the same person, including attempted buggery.

In total, he has pleaded guilty to seven charges involving three boys but denied 48 counts of sexual offences against 11 alleged victims, from to Bennell, he said, used to take him to watch Manchester City play at their old Maine Road ground and also bought him gifts as well as regular cinema and theatre trips.

I can remember the knock at the door. By that stage, Wales had built something that felt genuinely self-fulfilling. The squad shared a camaraderie unmatched by other nations and contained no little exceptional talent. But how could they not have Gary in their thoughts?

Each of them speaks with great emotion about the impact Speed had on them as people and players. The love, respect and admiration is painfully obvious. Log In. Contact us Sign up for newsletters. Log In Register now My account. By Daniel Storey. Sorry, there was a problem. More from Sport. It's not something a normal year-old would write, is it? Or not a well one," she said. After retiring as a player he became Wales' manager in December Speed and his wife had two sons together, Thomas and Edward.